Archive for May, 2014

May 21, 2014

Brief Update

by afatqiamat

Brief Update

My Landlady , Amma Bi has sold her house , she is in the process of shifting to somewhere else… till then

 

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bas Saday Haq ich dua karoo

 

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May 13, 2014

Getting torn Apart

by afatqiamat

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These days I am going through  severe personal  conflicts , that are within me , invisible , .and they are tearing me apart , the conflicts are at a deeper level , questioning my very existence , even the reason for existence .
a  whirlpool of  powerful forces  dragging me into different directions , I am trying to get out of their reach , because I know once I am caught into them , it will only end up as  madness  , and I don’t want that .

Madness that will be destructive for me , whatever little semblance of sanity I have left in my outer demeanour will shred my soul irrevocably

i have and am trying to divert my attentions to other trivial  but kinda engaging activities ….. but then suddenly out of no where   , like a bolt  and inner conflicts in me  strike ,… I go numb , suddenly  every thing become uninteresting  ….I don’t know how I keep my demeanour , the outer appearance … 

these conflicts are because of a deep personal nature , I don’t  think any body can understand  them , or even is willing to understand them … life is too busy …. one moment is a precious moment , not to be wasted ….

perhaps …………..perhaps …. when  I  retire … I may find someone …. equally alone ….like me 

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tut geya ik bandhan dhagey toun wee jo kachca  see.
khuch ta tha oo , keh na howan to achcha  see…  

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